I'll never learn

Here I am, for ranting again.

Week 8 now, which means this semester is gonna end very very soon, and that is why I'm attacked by stress recently.
Actually I am kinda sad, because I couldn't see my 'eye candy' after this semester. xDD

Let see how packed my submissions are.

6/5- International Studies, 1500 words
12/5- Communication, 2000 words
13/5-Marketing, 1000 words
14/5-Film Studies, 2500 words

God DAMN it!
I don't feel like I do have enough time to complete all these individual works on time.
There are So so so so SO packed!!

I'll never learn to focus.
I'll never learn to make use of time.
I'll never learn to 'zen' myself in the mal-condition.
I'll never learn to not repeating things that I swore not to repeat last time.

And, the worst part is when I'm attacking by stress,
my brain couldn't function properly.
And the hot weather makes me feel extremely uncomfortable and distracted.

How could I process in these ways? ='<



Perhaps I should visit library more in order to complete my assignments on time and, at the same time, enjoy the freezing air-cond there, since I couldn't focus at home. ;)

=(

当我受够了西方的吵杂
我回回令我舒服的东方
那种含蓄的表达
好让我可以静静地写完这篇东西

可是
当我受够了你
我却不知我该往哪边走去
因为你的恶心是无处不在
你的邪恶是遍布四方
无论我转到哪
你的丑陋还是令人觉得有点可悲的可怕

就算回到我专属的港口
他的单纯也是溶化我片刻的不安定
而不是打从心里的疙瘩


实在有够
恶心

Nighmare

Hopefully bad thing will not come.
It's so rare~
I got 2 nightmares in a same night yet I'm not a often 'dreamer'.
And every time I cried till waken up from the nightmare.
Is it a foreboding?

Please don't.
I'm gonna get back one of my essays today.
=(

Anyway today would be a hard day for me, I guess,
coz people said you are not really rested if you dream.
And I dream twice.
='(

Management

Management, specifically time management, is always a hard task for me.
Why? HAHA~
Maybe you couldn't believe it but it's true, I'm a solitary sort of fellow, I mean sometimes.
'Sometimes' included when I wanna work on my works, write my blog, place myself in ZEN mode, think/imagine about my future, listen to those relaxing songs, sing along songs and so forth....
I really enjoy the time when I have been isolated in my own little space; and this is the only time that I can utilize my time or work things out better.

Unfortunately, I didn't own my own room/space=(
I've been having a 'room-mate' since I was young.

And the another sad story was, I used to live in a single-storey townhouse, therefore I can hear what exactly on the TV when I was in my room and wanted to do my works.
Those temptations were too much for me.
And then, after hours of fighting with the angel and evil on my head, finally, the TV was switched off and my peaceful little world came at the same time.
However, it only lasted for 5 minutes. Because my room-mate will come into 'our' room and lie on the bed.

Have I forgotten to tell that, my 'room-mate' is the coach potato who always sit in front of the TV and claim that she is too old to listen to the volume that I set and keep turning the volume up? ==

Glad that my house is under renovation now, I'm going to own my own room and little space.
And hopefully there is no more reasons for me to not manage my time well after this.
Except that, after owning a room, there is no more reasons to blame others make my belongings lost. And there is no more reasons for me not to keep my room tidy and neat all the time.
Most importantly, there is no more reasons for me to start on my works after everyone slept.
HAHA.


p/s: Maybe I really got some problems, I really need things to go with the ways that I wanted them to be.

Arghhhhh

Pwuuuuuuuuuuu~
This is what exactly I did just now, right after trying to search for books by the library website.

OH MY GOD!
Why the essay title look so easy(compare with others) but when you wanna kick a start on it, it is so CLUELESS.

ADUHHHHHH!!
Sem 2 already, I dont know why I still cant get used to arrange those massive and messy information while trying to do the essay.

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You know what, recently I keep thinking about those questions which I used to give a very strong and confident answer to my parents before I start my course. I remember my answer was like

"I dont want to take Business course, it's very boring and Arts is more suitable for me. I wanted to do Arts, I'm not a business kind..."etc, like what you can imagine now.

Initially, I wanna do language major but since my uni din offer any in this campus, so I just switch myself to my second choice- International Studies. But recently I just really wonder whether have I make a wrong decision? Although until now I dont really feel like I will be happier in business.

hoiyor~OK LAH.
Perhaps, I just so enough about those wars!
PLEASE LAH. Stop war history, it's killing me.
I live suffocatingly under history, esp war history.