I'll never learn

Here I am, for ranting again.

Week 8 now, which means this semester is gonna end very very soon, and that is why I'm attacked by stress recently.
Actually I am kinda sad, because I couldn't see my 'eye candy' after this semester. xDD

Let see how packed my submissions are.

6/5- International Studies, 1500 words
12/5- Communication, 2000 words
13/5-Marketing, 1000 words
14/5-Film Studies, 2500 words

God DAMN it!
I don't feel like I do have enough time to complete all these individual works on time.
There are So so so so SO packed!!

I'll never learn to focus.
I'll never learn to make use of time.
I'll never learn to 'zen' myself in the mal-condition.
I'll never learn to not repeating things that I swore not to repeat last time.

And, the worst part is when I'm attacking by stress,
my brain couldn't function properly.
And the hot weather makes me feel extremely uncomfortable and distracted.

How could I process in these ways? ='<



Perhaps I should visit library more in order to complete my assignments on time and, at the same time, enjoy the freezing air-cond there, since I couldn't focus at home. ;)

=(

当我受够了西方的吵杂
我回回令我舒服的东方
那种含蓄的表达
好让我可以静静地写完这篇东西

可是
当我受够了你
我却不知我该往哪边走去
因为你的恶心是无处不在
你的邪恶是遍布四方
无论我转到哪
你的丑陋还是令人觉得有点可悲的可怕

就算回到我专属的港口
他的单纯也是溶化我片刻的不安定
而不是打从心里的疙瘩


实在有够
恶心

Nighmare

Hopefully bad thing will not come.
It's so rare~
I got 2 nightmares in a same night yet I'm not a often 'dreamer'.
And every time I cried till waken up from the nightmare.
Is it a foreboding?

Please don't.
I'm gonna get back one of my essays today.
=(

Anyway today would be a hard day for me, I guess,
coz people said you are not really rested if you dream.
And I dream twice.
='(

Management

Management, specifically time management, is always a hard task for me.
Why? HAHA~
Maybe you couldn't believe it but it's true, I'm a solitary sort of fellow, I mean sometimes.
'Sometimes' included when I wanna work on my works, write my blog, place myself in ZEN mode, think/imagine about my future, listen to those relaxing songs, sing along songs and so forth....
I really enjoy the time when I have been isolated in my own little space; and this is the only time that I can utilize my time or work things out better.

Unfortunately, I didn't own my own room/space=(
I've been having a 'room-mate' since I was young.

And the another sad story was, I used to live in a single-storey townhouse, therefore I can hear what exactly on the TV when I was in my room and wanted to do my works.
Those temptations were too much for me.
And then, after hours of fighting with the angel and evil on my head, finally, the TV was switched off and my peaceful little world came at the same time.
However, it only lasted for 5 minutes. Because my room-mate will come into 'our' room and lie on the bed.

Have I forgotten to tell that, my 'room-mate' is the coach potato who always sit in front of the TV and claim that she is too old to listen to the volume that I set and keep turning the volume up? ==

Glad that my house is under renovation now, I'm going to own my own room and little space.
And hopefully there is no more reasons for me to not manage my time well after this.
Except that, after owning a room, there is no more reasons to blame others make my belongings lost. And there is no more reasons for me not to keep my room tidy and neat all the time.
Most importantly, there is no more reasons for me to start on my works after everyone slept.
HAHA.


p/s: Maybe I really got some problems, I really need things to go with the ways that I wanted them to be.

Arghhhhh

Pwuuuuuuuuuuu~
This is what exactly I did just now, right after trying to search for books by the library website.

OH MY GOD!
Why the essay title look so easy(compare with others) but when you wanna kick a start on it, it is so CLUELESS.

ADUHHHHHH!!
Sem 2 already, I dont know why I still cant get used to arrange those massive and messy information while trying to do the essay.

__________________________________________________

You know what, recently I keep thinking about those questions which I used to give a very strong and confident answer to my parents before I start my course. I remember my answer was like

"I dont want to take Business course, it's very boring and Arts is more suitable for me. I wanted to do Arts, I'm not a business kind..."etc, like what you can imagine now.

Initially, I wanna do language major but since my uni din offer any in this campus, so I just switch myself to my second choice- International Studies. But recently I just really wonder whether have I make a wrong decision? Although until now I dont really feel like I will be happier in business.

hoiyor~OK LAH.
Perhaps, I just so enough about those wars!
PLEASE LAH. Stop war history, it's killing me.
I live suffocatingly under history, esp war history.

Decision

One of the hardest things in the world
would be making decision

Unfortunately
there are sooo many things have to be decided
From trivial decision in our daily life
to
the decisive decision which could totally change our life

We always have to decide something
mostly by ourselves
especially when we are old enough

See!
Growing up has nothing good

However I wonder
why decision is so hard for us to make?
Is it that all of us are timid?
Probably.
Timid on being blamed
Timid on facing the consequences
More importantly,
I guess
we are timid on admitting we are wrong

得闲饮野

聊生活

我的也许比谁都无趣

新学期开始了

感觉比之前的学期自在了些

熟悉环境了嘛

朋友说她即将去考法文了

令我想起我的韩文 瑜伽 韩式烹饪 到现在还在waiting list上有待完成

呵呵

所以今天不聊生活啦

哈哈

来聊聊酒

哈哈

喝一杯并不是最近才惹上的习惯

很久之前

我就喜欢小酌小酌

只是碍于年龄

才不敢放肆

哈哈

也不是说会喝得烂醉

只是小酌

让身体热一热

以酒来说

啤酒是比较不讨我喜欢的

它的气、残留的酒味令人很不舒服

然后到红酒

那个苦涩

还有有些是苦得来辣辣的

我也没很喜欢

可能是还没真正喝过

一流的红酒吧

反倒是

鸡尾酒、Shot

令我觉得蛮自在的

哈哈

鸡尾酒

用各种不同的味道

混合成一杯甜苦参半的饮料

承托上有时连念也念不出的名字

真的很特别

上次朋友喝了一杯里面有'菜'的咧

哈哈哈

其实是香草拉

至于shot

就只是烈酒掺汽水/果汁而已

可是一样赢得我的芳心

哈哈哈

因为它也是苦甜参半

而好的酒不会被汽水/果汁抢去风头

就算它在味蕾上不留下任何痕迹

当它入侵你的身体

你一定会感觉得到

ermmmm

看起来

aiyarrr

不知道为什么

我觉得我喜欢喝这两种酒是跟我性格有关的

只是到现在我还没找出那个‘奥妙’

哈哈哈哈

朋友

得闲饮野

xDDDD

我就是这么样的一个人

我就是这么样的一个人
被摇摆的爵士音乐弄得我想着
自己跟朋友在纽约
在气氛佳的爵士音乐酒吧
听着诱人的爵士
喝着鸡尾酒
穿着裙子
拍着手掌鼓励台上的歌手
碰一碰酒杯
干了一杯
走在街上是永不灭灯的纽约街道
街上是一辆辆的黄色的士
还有
传闻中的沟渠'香'
配合着我漂浮的脚步
唱着刚才的爵士乐
走着回酒店
然后
躺在床上
笑着笑着
然后然后
发觉
梦还有一段路

我就是这么样的一个人
爱听故事
不爱流泪
爱吃东西
不愿花钱
喜欢听人唱歌
喜欢自己唱歌
浪漫的歌


我就是这么样的一个人
喜欢跟人说着自己的故事
说着怎么让电卷棒烫伤了下巴
怎样长了痘痘
怎样喝醉
新试的面膜好不好用
谁谁谁唱歌很好听
谁谁谁讲话很好笑
谁谁谁人很好
云顶行用了很多钱却没有很尽兴

反正做自己真的很舒服
也原来
我身边也有听我故事的人
很喜欢你们
也爱你们当你们在我说之前
就知道我是这么样的一个人
=)

老歌

老歌比较好听
这个情况
让我深深体会
新的东西不一定好

新的东西包装好
令人有焕然一新的感觉
然而
播出来的
只是重量不重质的敷衍

就这样
又重头投入旧歌的怀抱

啦啦啦啦啦~

在新的一年开始之际
旧的还是比较受欢迎

万象复旧
心里有种说不出的澎湃

无聊的新年
>___<

想要跟我的SPT疯狂去

酒后遗症

很享受
那片刻的无我
然而
我却不喜欢它带来的后遗症

一整天的不舒服
24小时的无精打采

当它在我身上猛烈的流动时
我无法思考
无法完全睁开双眼看看酒后的世界
然而
耳边定会传来朋友们看见的世界

后遗症
也使我无法分辨对与错
那就让我含糊带过那个我错过的世界吧
呵呵

不知道是原本就是这样
还是被酒精挡住了思维线
因为到此刻
我还是无法好好思考
好啦

Frankly, the way that I celebrated the coming of Chinese New Year Eve
is CRAZY~


朋友们
希望你们幸福
或者自私点地说
希望你们以我所希望看见的方式幸福
咔咔咔咔咔
=)
Love U alllll~~^^