Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Friends and the City

Kuala Lumpur is such an amazing city where there are really lots kind of people around.
It's much full filled with both locals and exotics.
What would you say?

We have the very 'local' who we called bumiputra;
we have those coming from the Chinese land;
we have those coming from the Indian land;
and of course we have those from elsewhere.
So, the very special thing here is- we all mixed together!
How nice! =)

Recently
one of my best friends seems having a very good time on her job and her life.
I really glad to hear that.
But then, what I really get aroused is her life! LOL
Oh my godness...!!
I have to prepare myself!
Prepared to get some astounded news from her!
Oh my godness!! A French not french fries! LOL
Oh my godness again!
I'd never been thought that any of my friend will hook up with an ang mo~
Although France doesn't give me any good impression,
except the nice and romantic view in Paris .
What I heard about French are arrogant, unfriendly or possibly sometimes they are rude.
But these are not always the cases, right?
The thing is my friend met a French in M'sia!!
Although their prospect is looking dim now, who knows what will happen next, right?
Maybe she'll meet another ang mo..?
Haha.
I think I should stop my own exciting imagination here before she get frustrated. lol

Apart from this,
erm..well, I guess I'd better elaborated my 'friends and the city' series on my next blog post..
It's too long already.

Quote Carrie Bradshaw in Sex and the City,
"This is what I love about NYC, you'll never know what'll happen next."
For me,
"This is what I love about City, you'll never know what'll happen next."

Need not to go to the far away NYC, in the small and messy KL or elsewhere, you'll definitely find your own enchanted.


I love City; the unknown variables in it which waiting for you to reveal. =D

Ces't la vie!
Santé !

Monday, November 2, 2009

悼念建筑

因为功课需要
在youtube找了911恐怖袭击的短片来看
反复看了多次
没有一次我的心是不震撼的

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x4sRi5stG10&feature=fvw
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M6f9Jpfz1Vo&feature=related



听见人们
从歇斯底里地呐喊
到无助地痛哭悲鸣
叫人怎么不怜悯

短短的数十秒
送走的不是风
是人命
而留下只有灰烬

曼哈顿的夜空从此就这样历史性地改变了
昂昂耸立地大厦

只剩下两束光



再查看资料
原来袭击者不是像我们想象中
来自贫窘的邋遢穷人

个个都是受教育
中产阶级的第二代
甚至多数是在美国土生土长
受美国开放式的教育
照理来说
应该是个懂得是非对错
爱好和平的文明现代人
而且其中很多人都有飞机驾驶执照
原本是大有好为的年轻人
为何会甘愿牺牲自己去完成那所谓的还击?
不明白
______________________________________

Pudu Jail
要拆咯
送走的也不是风
是回忆

虽然我知道的不是很多
也没有进过去
只是那外围的墙
可是受刑的囚犯画的
我觉得很有意义
而且中学那段时间
常常都会经过它
就像是我过去的一部分一样

现实就是会把这一切都摧毁
它坐落在市中心
与金三角是邻居
时间的变迁强烈地投影在它身上
对我来说
这种对比的美感
才是最自然的最有意义地标
有些东西有时候真的
不需要刻意规划营造

又少了一栋有历史的建筑
让我有些为大马惋惜


原来
那些绝望的嘶哄与我这种内心静静地惋惜
就是人们对于建筑物的感情
世界上
真难找到一样没有情感的东西
=)

Sunday, November 1, 2009

依归·归依

这个就是我喜欢感情的地方
不管你在天涯的哪方
时差如何阻拦
那股力量会支撑着你
让你知道迷路了也会有个方向

这是一种力量
不局限于拥有爱情才可以拥有的力量

这股力量
我称之为
依归

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Time @ Final Countdown

Time flies.
Time and tide wait for no man.
And finally, it's time to have final exam.
I don't know what can I do in this very last minutes.
Currently, I'm in final countdown-ing.
My 1st paper, the very adorable Psychology, will be held in this coming Friday, after lunch,1.30pm.
Will it be a lovely Friday's afternoon? HOPE SO.

I wonder why before and after exam, students are always surrounded by the feelings of guilty, regret and the always unsolved questions.
'I should have started earlier' ' I should have on schedule'
'why i'm this lazy' 'why why WHY'...blah blah blah..
Why don't we bear these questions and feelings on mind and avoid ourself trapping into the muddy time's trap again?
Why we always choose to stay in the revolving door- keep repeating 'the final tragedy'?
Of course, I'm always is one of those typical students, seems like I kena cursed.
It's a good time to ask myself, 'why'.

After all these craps, back to reality...
1 and 1/2 days more..
Wish me LUCK!
Wish you all LUCK too.

Monday, October 26, 2009

Brave to live in Reality

I like my friends who always means both teacher and friend to me.Unfortunately, not everyone could own that position in my heart.Yet, once you owned that position, it's quite hard for me to sack you away. xD
In my last post, he said living in the past will make us vulnerable.True. I know that.
Meanwhile, I realize that I'm not brave enough to stay brave and strong.Hence, I'm not good enough to achieve what a stronger could achieve.Ironically, being a stronger is what I wanna to be.
I do set goals, and I really put some efforts to achieve them.Although the results are not satisfying, due to the reason that the insufficient efforts,but at least I do try, unlike in the past, keep nagging and do nothing.I promise myself to do better in the coming future.

I hope I can live in reality, as strong as you all.But the loneliness that I felt sometimes, killing me softly and demolishing what I have done.It's regrettable, but I have to admit that I'm as brave/ tough as I thought.

Fortunately, I still have you guys.
Right? =)

Don't worry, I'll really try to be brave to live in reality.Reality is harsh, vulnerable me will try, really really do try.

1st step is, coping with loneliness!

Wish me Luck! xD
And thanks~everyone~in my life~



Tuesday, October 20, 2009

统考 · 学期考


这是去年的这个时候
我在书轩
让眼镜与商业课本合照的画面

今天来到这里
人一样不多
服务一样周到
冷气还是一样冷
饮料还是一样浓稀参半

只是我的眼镜
不能只是跟一本课本合照
它必须与更多的东西去描绘去
现在的我
还有我们

更厚的课本
但却少了战友的陪伴

一起熬夜
一起准备明天的测验
已经变成
独自熬夜
独自准备明天的测验

手机也不会在深夜
收到战友的一封 '进展如何?' 信息
更没有互相叫对方起身的来电



今天的书轩
也有不少人在准备统考
就像我们去年这段时间一样

该死的
让我想起
我去年的生活
就很自然的
好怀念

好想待在书轩到傍晚
然后到isetan去抢购半价便当
明天带去学校吃

可是
该死的laptop
我害怕走在不完全安全也不完全危险的金三角时
要跟它说再见

成长的代价
就是
我不能再抢购半价便当??

_____________________________________

回忆
为何总是那么美好

纵使
那段时间
是那么难挨过

如果让回忆继续在脑里翩翩起舞
我也好想在毕业晚会
好好地
再一次
牵着朋友们的手
胡乱地再跳一次
然后
又再一次
看着友人点放的烟火
多么美丽
多么灿烂

=)

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

哇哇叫

哈哈
我的生活
总是跟是非挂钩
其实也不是什么新东西
只是最近回顾了这段时间的生活
然后
拖到现在才来写而已

'哇'
惊讶地一叫或两叫
总是在某个八卦后出现
哈哈

八卦、是非
这是我们的天性吗?
如果是
我觉得也跟我们的外表一样
有显性基因和隐性基因之分

有些人静静的
可是
储藏室里有很多不为人知的‘好料’
有些人很聒噪
叽叽喳喳
可是说来说去也还不是那两样
在这种情况中
我会假设
他/她只是在套我的资料
哈哈

可是哦
其实我并没有很八卦
只是八卦会找上门
然后
可能是我的组织能力还不错
就能把A说的
跟B说的连一连
然后大家就觉得我是雷达
什么事都来问我
@@

‘哇’
要我这么惊讶地一叫其实还有点难
除非你的八卦真的很有爆点
例如
谁昨天秘密生了
偷偷结婚了
超出我们这个年纪所能覆盖的范围的八卦
才算是
哇哇叫的八卦

不然哦
净说些没有爆点的所谓新闻
没有价值的新闻
也会让说的那个人慢慢慢慢没有价值


有一句话说得很对
人最难看见的是自己
就在我描述他人的八卦时
我已写了这篇有点‘长舌’的blog

我真的要认真学着点
养好嘴巴


阿门
=)

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

一生人

一生人
我们会经历多少的
开心
我们会错过多少的
精彩

其实所有事情的根源
都是'决定'
这一秒的决定
决定你的一生人的一生
就算是一个微不足道的小决定
它也可能在不知不觉中影响了
哈哈
有选择恐惧症的人
会不会就是因为太理解这个道理?

一生人
要有多少的开心
才算是开心
要有多少的精彩
才算是精彩

如果我这一生人
选择只跟一个人
那我的开心
都是建立在这个人
我的精彩
都取决于这个人

怎么听起来有很传统的感觉?
好像
女怕嫁错郎酱


这几天

没有休息过
思考着
作文怎么写
思考着
我的一生人
很努力地思考着该怎么走
可是
连下一秒会发生什么事
我都不知道
酱怎么想?

跟着感觉走?
走走走
走到哪里
很怕走到迷路
然后到最后
我连你都没有了
没有了
也找不回来了
那我该怎么走


不知道为什么
我这几天
很容易被不安的频率
侵袭我的思绪
攻击我的心
可能是我的‘信心’军
累了
防御不了攻击

我只想
忘掉所有的东西一天
让我的脑空白一天
就一天
不想所有的事情
不去思考那些所谓‘一生人’的问题

好累好累
明白吗


啊~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
啊~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Saturday, September 19, 2009

凭什么

我的人生是我的


凭什么剥夺
凭什么替我做决定
凭什么要我听你的话
凭什么要我跟着你的理想生活
凭什么说为我好



到底知不知道我多么需要自由
到底知不知道我要为自己做任何一个小决定
到底知不知道为什么我会听你话
到底知不知道我有我理想的生活
到底知不知道我所谓的‘好’是什么


我能了解你为我好
可是
我怎样也理解不到
你为什么可以替我做决定


我不是一个机器
除了功课我还有、还要做很多事
你不在这里
新朋友不熟
我真的很闷
闷得
你随时找我,我都得空那种
为什么连这种难得的聚会
也要为我做个你觉得为我好的决定


我有感觉
伤了我还要言有其物那么觉得
为我好



我怎么也想不到
你也会忽略我的感受
你也会这么不公平地对待我

所以
这次
我也决定不理你的感受

我真的很伤心

“我只是要告诉你罢了,没有打算叫你去”
.....
就这样被遗弃

过后的那些慰问
怎样也弥补不了这句话带来的冲击
只会让我觉得
你要我跟着你的想法去做

Fuck off!

Monday, September 14, 2009

Mand-glish

Today one of my friends critiqued on chinese blog.

He said
Chinese blogs are always emo
and they like to describe about 'weather'

well
he got his point, right?

And apparently
I'm shooting by him as well

I'm not angry at all
Even he said he cant get what my blog is all about
Sometimes I dont really know what I'm writing
haha xD

But~
Obviously
He had made me wanna make up my point
Just like what he did

Then
My mind came out a new term
Mand-glish
the combination of Mandarin & English

Mandarin or Chinese
is the most powerful written language in the world...
..for me..

I love the beauty of Chinese
because
this is the only language that could express all my world
in only 1 word.
no more no less, ONE

I proud that I could command Chinese
the hardest language in the world.

Yet
I always ask myself
'Why I cant master English when I had alrdy master the hardest quite well?'
.......


Well, back to the topic~
My point is..
Chinese is powerful and it suits the 'sentimental' me.
And
one day
I'll prove that English blog can describe about weather and Emo as well
hehehe~

Mand-glish
is another wonderful and powerful language that created by ME.

Me思you
乐full又

If your language foundation is good enough
You will get what these two short phrases mean

第一篇英文的blog
我不会常用
真的
^^