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In 2011

2012-01-25T01:45:00.002+08:00

2011年是我成年以来最丰收的一年

到了很多地方

遇见很多人

看了很多事

还有坐了很多飞机

这些地方人与事

飞机可纳入或除外

就是我的2011

丰收的意思不是局限于这些表面的词语

感觉上

我是说感觉上

觉得自己不一样了

不能也不敢果断的说我长大了

因为我不希望长大

可是如果这件事无法避免

我就希望我一直都在长大

说觉得自己不一样

当然是明显得分辨出自己

在2011前半段和后半段

那些想法行为上的差别

以至于

以前敢跟自己约定好未来

现在却只能想着活好未来

挫折真的是最好的老师

虽然

很讨厌

目前来说

自己的未来还不是最烦心的

因为在心里已经有一个谱

只是自己一直不肯放下

任何一栏可以钻进去修饰的机会

总觉得这个谱或许能作出更好的曲子

最烦心的是‘我们’的未来

被挫折打击时

一些自己被冲击

一些自己却被突现

反思自己的时候

赫然发现

差异严重的还不是前后的自己

却是

我们

原来好像已经不再平行

突如其来的消息

让我一如往常不知所措

间中心里会传出貌似‘答案’的声音

可是我仍然不知所措地选择性忽略部分声音

... ...... ....

很确定的是

2011年给我这个选择题

我却只能在2012年得到正解

虽然2011不顺遂

可是我很满意

因为

至少我很明确知道我不再原地踏步

给自己的备忘录

2011-12-03T11:47:00.002+08:00

出现问题有两个解决方法

一，解决问题前进

二，转换方向

两个解决方案的大前提是不能原地踏步

虽不知一或二哪个是所谓的好去向

但也只能硬着头皮去看看

它们所带给我的天空

虽然路途或抵达的是另一个黑夜

但总比等来得实际

心战

2011-10-27T22:32:00.002+08:00

好胜的人

总会不间断地为自己寻找

敌人

目标

以及

战争

因为对于好胜的人来说

赢之不武

并不是赢的最高境界

那么

自然地

战争的全盛时期

就是当你出现另一名竞争者的时候

而在这情况下

最有趣的胜利品

我觉得是心

因为

胜利的人不只打败了另一个人

还得到了一个人一颗心

要战胜一颗心

其实是

人与心的战争

还是

心与心的战争

呢?

戏剧人生

2011-10-22T23:16:00.004+08:00

老是爱来爱去的偶像剧
看到我都腻了
尤其是挥别20后
写实的爱情剧
反而更值得回味
而且
随着时间的流逝
更能诠释以及体会戏剧里的人生
还有发掘我们人生里的戏剧

最近在看的是

我可能不会爱你

林依晨以及陈柏霖主演
里面没有慢动作的耍帅镜头
也没有粘腻的纠缠
每一字每一句
都是
切切实实的人生
当然
它也像是一本知性的书
告诉或者比较贴切的用词是提醒
一些真实到我们已经知道
但却无法接受而转过头的道理
用另一种方式
把逃避的我们
从遥远的超梦幻爱情偶像剧中
从帅气魅力多金男的环中
拉回属于我们人生的戏剧中

世界上或许真的有道明寺
可是
往往他们都是潜伏在李大仁的身体里
就只是等被我们这些盲目追寻丁立威的程又青们
慢慢发现而已

p/s: 韩剧 "他们的世界" 也蛮算是写实爱情剧噢
还有
目前为止我最喜欢的一句对白是
“你不需要把我当成敌人，
因为你真正的敌人是他的心”
还要对Ariel Kuok说
我明了
哈哈

自由的不想睡

2011-10-15T01:48:00.004+08:00

不能说是个失眠的夜晚

只是莫名地不想睡

却不觉得很逼迫

就好像有时候

听着陌生语言的歌

可是莫名地被感动

然后试着用自己的意思去诠释

这一句那一行

却不觉得很牵强

这是所谓的自由吗？

写•我

2011-10-04T19:28:00.001+08:00

好久都没有对着键盘

尽情地盲无目的地写

我从来都不觉得

在人们眼前的我是真正的我

因为我不是个擅长言词的人

我内敛得孤僻得

只想一个人

忘记全世界的存在

描写我的心情我的表情我的所有事情情

以及你不想或想知道的

曾经现在和未来

书写

是我唯一的精神寄托

唯一能让我壮烈地活着的虚拟模式

强烈的它

能让我去盖过那真实平平稳稳的一生

是啊叛逆的我只能胆小地这样苟且偷生

曾几何时

那成长所需的忧郁时期

把我推向巅峰

每天每天都需要写写写

来放肆地舒解自己放肆地去爱放肆地去恨

放肆我的所有情绪

那个才是最真的我吧

不被束缚七零八乱就像我的衣橱一样

没有的任何模式乱中有我的序

现在是长大了吧

也当然是自己没再放肆地让里面的我出来搞混

我半同意地让曾经让我觉得浪漫的自己慢慢沉睡

现在却执意要把它唤醒

是受够沉闷的生活

还是沉睡的自己意识到踏实的爱情要渗进骨子里了

要占据掉她的位置所以她在潜意识里张牙舞爪

打死都不肯再睡？

好想

一直

我写我

不顺

2011-09-20T20:30:00.002+08:00

来了两个月

申请了一份intern一份casual part time

结果都收到一封回邮说

Thank you for your application.

Unfortunately, your application is not successful

after reviewing all the applications received by deadline.

We wish you every personal and professional success with your job search and in the future.

Thank you again for your interest in our organisation.

想想这边的人还蛮有人性的

至少不会让你痴痴地等呀

还会祝你以后顺利

其实对我来说真的是很挑战下

话说在KL我要找工可不难咯

唉

看来我要学的还很多很多

拜托拜托

让我标到一份功！

竟然要用到标这个字

沮丧的时候想想

还是回去家里

懒下懒下的活着也不错啊

至少爸妈可以看到我

我也可以陪陪他们

澳洲说

2011-09-03T14:46:00.003+08:00

再艳阳的晴天也有吹狂风的时候

就像现在

再冷的夜晚也有暖流吹进屋里的时候

就像昨晚

人也许要活在漂浮不定的情况

才能茁壮成长

至少遇到任何不如意

我都这样告诉自己

也必须这样相信

澳洲说

在澳洲就是要这样过

澳洲说

我们出产白酒

牛奶很是高品质

然后

话说

这瓶东西的后味

有点奶味

要公主

2011-07-08T02:31:00.004+08:00

要或不要的本质

基本上是在于欲望的驱使

身为一个典型的‘现在的女孩子’

我

也想要很多

要瘦要美要才貌双全

最好有过人的才华有礼貌有让人称赞不完的好

更好的话还希望自己能家底不错出身好

用的吃的买的看的都要是好的

还要找到一个很好的人陪伴左右

总结就是要过偶像剧里的生活做个公主

有一个朋友跟我说‘公主是最高境界’

因为什么都有

她很希望自己是哈哈

幸好她没有公主病

她的快乐很简单思想也不麻烦

可是我总觉得要培养出这样的简单也不是件易事

我有时候很佩服她

因为在某方面

她能做到我无法做到的

简单

好像所有发生在她身上的事情都是很简单

可以很简单被解决也可以是很简单地发生

也许是因为要很多可是又不想吃亏的个性

我很难让自己简单

当然有一部分的原因是

被捡到便宜的满足感给蒙蔽

另一部分就是我不想也有些不相信

事情可以永远那么简单

至少很多事情不可以

对我而言

那些简单都需要被一股强大的复杂且不确定

在化学作用下成为一个固定方程式

然后重复发生

这样的个性是不可能成为公主

谁看过会为生活而担忧的公主

当然我也不想呵呵

其实说实在

如果能做到像朋友那么简单了当

其实就已经是公主了

至少本质已经是了

荒废

2011-06-18T01:54:00.004+08:00

久违露脸

真的很久

从上一篇人还在美国宿舍房的单人床上把喜欢的歌的词copy

到现在回到舒服的家躺在宽大的双人床上拼凑出我的心情

过程中我到处流浪睡了很多不同的的地方不同的床

可是一样的是我爱荒废的本性

对难改的本性

也许最近是旅游的季节吧

除了我身边也有不少朋友出游

看着facebook上一张张的笑脸

站在不同的地方

耸立的大教堂

庄严的故宫

香火鼎盛的庙

都是我曾经很熟悉的脸孔

有一些是随着升学而行远的朋友

一些则是我愧于面对的

那些被荒废掉的友情

对荒废

因为这些友情并不是被残酷的距离给带走的

而是给时间

我蹉跎掉的时间

我有心无心选择遗弃掉的时间

一点一滴累计至

我忘了也合计不了的时间

给分开

可是怎么样呢？

补救..怎么补呢？

也很狼狈吧

淡忘吗？

我怎么觉得很无情

也许也只能这样

像一对不能继续而分开的情侣

看着照片中笑着的你们

然后心想

希望你们一直都能那么好

一首歌

2011-02-13T04:12:00.002+08:00

S.H.E - NOTHING EVER CHANGES
专辑:美丽新世界

嘿不要不开心
我不是要离去
只是那来自远方呼唤的声音
要我去探头看看生命窗外的风景
我去去就来你别红眼睛
My love
原谅我太好奇
但世界太绮丽
我怎么能不一一去经历
否则我一定会恨死我自己
Nothing ever changes
请快乐等待
等我绕一圈回来
还会是那个爱你的女孩
一样很容易感动感谢感慨
你给我的爱我永远爱
My love
要不是你给我
那巨大的勇气
我怎么会这样相信我可以
随着梦想留下美丽的足迹
串成了故事带回来送你
我答应你
等我看够美景就回来

交给你一颗更丰富的心

__________________________

Nothing much just a song,
a song that tell my feeling and story.
希望绕了30圈回来
我还是那个爱你的女孩
I wish.
*heart*
:)

Charmaine in the Americano-land

2011-02-08T13:19:00.006+08:00

Time flies.

I have been staying in the States for one month.

Everything works fine and I've already get used to the life here.

I'm good at accommodating myself, just as usual.

Even this is a small town,

everything is well developed but the bus route is a little confusing.

So, even I'm a walking GPS in Malaysia,

I just get malfunction here.

these are the bus routes for ONLY this town

I like this place and its tranquility.

However, just like every town and city in the world,

jerk is always around.

And just like her(US) portrayal in the movies,

this is totally a drama land.

You'll never know who you'll meet at the next corner,

maybe a bus driver who at your father's age asks you out for dinner;

maybe two drunken guys who verbally harassed and tail you for a distance;

or maybe a fruit might hit your forehead when you on your way back from lunch.

Mummy and daddy kinda want me to stay here for my course.

Since I'm really like the environment,

and in term of living cost, this place is lower than Melbourne,

so, I'll seriously think about it.

Yet, my COOLs are all at Australia :(

Well, maybe I can exchange to Aus..?

Haha.

It's Chinese New Year now,

miss my family and friends.

This is my first not at home CNY.

I scarify a lot to come to the States,

not only CNY but also my annual trip with my SPT.

Therefore,

I will really train myself be a better girl and person here.

I will gather pocketful of experience that worth for all my scarified.

*Heart* <3>

I have a dream

2011-01-18T11:17:00.004+08:00

Today (17/1) was public holiday in the States

-Martin Lurther King Jr.'s day.

He was the founder of dreamer I would say

as his famous line was

'I HAVE A DREAM'

One of my friends here asked 'what to do on MKL's day' on twitter

she got a reply said 'DREAM'

lol

haha.

Every American has a dream, I assume.

So, do you?

Do you?

By the way

I love this piece from Yiruma.

He is my love.

梦想起飞

2011-01-14T07:50:00.003+08:00

终于终于

出国留学梦不再是梦

千里迢迢到13个小时时差、24小时远的国度

是完全不在我原先的计划里的一步

是我从来没有想过自己会到的国家

可是你知道吗？

当梦想起飞

我并没有现象中的兴奋

朋友问说这不是你想要的吗?

是啊，而且这只是我的第一步!

但是

当我还来不及完全相信我做到了

我就已经在

流着眼泪

拎着行李

离开家人

独自飞行24+小时

在这个梦想国

在我梦寐以求的大学校园环境

呼吸着

漫步着

生活着

感觉就像活在梦里那样

那么的不真实

那么的抓不着

我得到了

可是那又怎样

梦想起飞的时候

想起的反而是平时在我身边的一切和留下来

哈哈

这里其实没有不好

我也没有什么不好

只是家永远是天堂

Dreamy land

2010-12-20T15:52:00.010+08:00

Yesterday I went to office with my mummy to rescue my collapsed face.

FYI, my mummy used to be a beautician and she is a part-timer beautician now.

After that, we went to Tesco to restore groceries and food.

On our way from office to Tesco

I saw this

The very Korean-style-decorated coffee house caught my eyes.

And it's written

Korean food Hotdog and Coffee

A huge Korean food fans like me will definitely wanna give a try

and I'd immediately listed it as my

'MUST visit before leaving No.1'

Then

~~DaDang~~

There we are.

haha.

The coffee house, or should call restaurant is offering both Korean food and Hotdog,

and of course some pastries.

Apparently, this very Korean coffee house is operating by a pair Korean father and son.

They are very nice and friendly by offering me some more side dishes when

the father saw I was almost finishing the side dishes and I haven't finished my meal.

Some pics of the food and pastries that we ordered.

Moji and Choux Cream Puff.

The puff was super nice!

My Kimchi soup.

This was my first time on trying Kimchi soup cooked with calms and tuna.

Ok but not spicy enough.

His Kimchi fried rice.

Doesn't meet his taste but mine.

The side dishes.

Love them!

There are varieties of hotdog offered and it said that the hotdog and its bread are handmade

so I assume their signature food is HOTDOG!

which I did not manage to try on this visit so save it for the coming one.

hehe.

Anyway,

this coffee house looks so dreamy right :D

It's called B-station,

located at Ampang, WaterFront (if I'm not mistaken the place),

near Korean Stone BBQ.

Go and try, and you'll love it!

The M.A.C world

2010-12-10T18:19:00.005+08:00

Ooopss!

It's been awhile.

How are you guys doing?

FYI, this is a random post to keep my blog updated.

I've entered the M.A.C world, not the Apple Mac by the way.

The M.A.C world

Last Saturday my aunt came to my house with 2 bags of M.A.C cosmetics.

As you see above, these are the cosmetics that she gave me.

Yes, G.A.V.E aka F.O.C

Another bag of cosmetics is for my cousin.

I wonder when can I finish all these, especially most of them are eye shadow.

F.Y.I, I don't know how to use eye shadow.

By the way, I love the blusher very very very very very much!

So natural.

Hopes everyone is doing real well.

The poor quality of my camera makes me feel terrible.

When can I get my Samsung EX1..?

Grand Returning

2010-11-06T21:09:00.004+08:00

Heeeellllloha bloggiersss!

I'm finally back to the bloggier land.

Oh yeah
Obviously
I'm survived from the 'word limits' land
but I was sad and worried
because I did a stupid and serious mistake in my most 'major' essay
(FYI, that paper cost me 60% of the unit)
What I can do now is pray super hard and hope my lecture won't fail me.
(FYI again, she is very strict and taking that paper very serious)
And I really need/appreciate you guys crossed fingerrrsss for me
=((

Putting the never ended story aside
let's move on to something more hipppppy.

The kampung boy gave me the surprise gift already

An Ipod Touch 4G

Fish Eye effect
Now I know why everytime I approach to aquarium,
those fishes will drift away instantly,
looks abit scary I mean for fishes.

I have to admit, he was right, I like this very much
and I have to say this gadget is very useful if you use it correctly
I have downloaded some apps for improving language,
hope things will work out.
Anyway, Apple/Mac is not a user-friendly device,
you need to learn from the start for every little single thing.
But the feeling of have a touch of high-tech is amazing though.

After I left the words limit land,
life is dull and empty.
I hate this kind of feeling
and
I believe everyone of us has gone through this before.
Waiting for my gang to finish their finals to go for a little trip.
So many places I wanna visit to before I leave the Truly Asia land.

Where am I going?
That's the secret I'll never tell..now!

xD
By the way, I love GossipGirl!
Guess because I'm one of those gossip girlsss in the world.
Hahahahha.
Take care from now and before we meet again.
Au revoir!

Gone Invisible

2010-10-07T00:25:00.004+08:00

Nothing much to say
Just a post before I officially disappear for 3 weeks.
Gotta buried by assignments again.

Pimples, I hope you wont come to attack me again.

I promised I'll be back after 3 weeks,
coz I'll be officially ended my 2nd Yr, 1st Sem at that moment.
Time flies.
I still remember the 1st day of my orientation.
And the 1st time I got back my assignment.
xD
___________________________________________

Actually something bad happened, really bad.
And I feel more terrible when I feel that I can't help anything.

Thanks the kampung boy for being my side during all these hard times.

He promised me something sweet
unfortunately
I have no faith, for anything, at this moment.

And he keeps reminding he bought me sth
which he 100% I'll like it to the max
Oh dear,
this is the time when I should start worry
about what he had bought.
Haha.

He said I'll get it after I submitted all my essays
which means 3 weeks later.

____________________________________________
Anyway,

Breath In Breath Out
Breath In Breath Out

I'm not giving birth.
I'm taking a deep breath to move forward.

温习周杰伦

2010-08-18T00:42:00.008+08:00

温习周杰伦(Loewe Voon, 2010)
这个词不是从我这里来的

Image from Google

从不认为自己是周杰伦的super fans
但是
认真想想
把他十年来的歌都播一播的话
倒是总会有几首能跟着哼/唱出来
随之而来的
是一连串断断续续的回忆
出现的可能是初二上毛笔课时的情景
也可能是那其中一个写着日记的无数深夜
又或者是尝试跟着唱刁钻歌词的傍晚
........
代表的远远超过一个创作歌手而已
当然，是在某种程度上

所以说
有些人有些事
可能只有自己理解其中的意义而已
如果别人不懂或没有尝试理解
那么
就当作是自己跟自己的一种默契或者暗号吧

哈哈
在今天这个倾于过度舒服的一天
温习着周杰伦
这些'随之而来'都令人觉得舒服

:)

Fly Me to the Moon :)

2010-08-16T15:10:00.005+08:00

Fly me to the moon.
Yet,
perhaps, it is still not far enough for a dreamer like you and me.

:)

Image from Google

Don't give up to dream.
And try as much as you can to fly your dream.

:D

Stay happy and be positive always everyone.

July in a nutshell

2010-08-09T23:14:00.013+08:00

It has been a month since my last blog post.

My laziness always drag me on updating and sharing my life here.

First of all, Yes and finally my dear little HP netbook is here!
I got it 2 days before my new semester start, in a Saturday morning when I was still huddle together with my blanket.

And Mr. D and I paid a short visit to Genting and Bukit Tinggi to 'celebrate' my 20th birthday.
Nothing much to say about the trip,
Genting was as boring as usual and Bkt. Tinggi was not as fun I expected,
however it was a super duper relaxing break.
I feel so refreshed after the trip yet not so ready for the commencing of new semester =[

We cook dinner together and since both of us are newbies to kitchen,
it took us quite a long time to get everything prepared =P

By the way, I like this so much
because dear Moon was just right above us =D

I was so scared to approach the black swan, typical city-grown child I guess.

After that, semester starts which almost equal to lifeless life is started again.
Haha.
But luckily I have friends and what a friend does is
bring lively and vivid elements into my boring lifeless life.
*love*

Oh ya!
I'm 20 now, therefore I need to try/ urge myself to do something that I've never tried before.
Life is short and time flies.
Right?

So what are the 'something'?
Will reveal in my next post.
See ya!
:)

Chanel Movies

2010-07-10T19:59:00.009+08:00

This holidays I seem ain't do anything meaningful,
except that I did catch up with couples of movies.

Movie, just like usual, inspires thousand million people on the earth,and sometimes it so hard to believe those vastly infused product placement's movies will do inspired people.

Back to topic, movie, I watched 2, precisely, 1 and a half French movies, with some topic surrounds a lady called Gabrielle Coco Chanel, the founder of 'Chanel'.

Coco avant Chanel

Coco avant Chanel was a movie that I watched in GSC during the French movie festival. Not to hide my intention, I wanna watch it because it's a Chanel movie and I have kind of curious to explore the brand of Chanel.

Coco Chanel

Coco Chanel was the movie that I deliberately noticed in PPS (the best friend of human being xD); actually there is another one Chanel movie that I haven't watched yet but I don't think I'll watch it since it's a secret love story of Coco Chanel and a musician.

Why 1 and a half?
Because 'Coco Chanel' is American made and the French are all spoke English.
lol

What I really wanna tell is what people should learn is not the name but the spirit behind.
Are these two pieces are commercial movies?
Definitely, the whole movie is full of Chanel.
However, commercial movie doesn't mean you have nothing to gain except of being entertained.

For me, she is a legendary.
The first ever lady who told the other ladies to dress, behave, live for themselves but not to please the men. Haha!
Don't misunderstanding this is a feminist post, all the things that I told could be adopted on both sex, twist abit then you'll figure out.

The most impressive dialogues in Coco Chanel were
'Freedom will never be old-fashioned' and 'I'm the one who decide the material'.
True enough!
And for your info, she was the first who introduced the color of 'black' to the formal occasion, back then in ten decades ago, people were still so abstained from using black.
What I have really been inspired is,
we decide what we want and we define things not things define us.

Maybe Emily was right,
France is a place surrounded with the spirit of revolution!
Good luck to her plan of getting France!
And thanks for her recommendation for me to watch Coco avant Chanel when I ask for her suggestion.
:)

When it comes to last day of June

2010-07-02T18:37:00.012+08:00

30/6

After a month settle down and moved back to my house,

I’m still haven’t finished packed my stufffffsss.

Therefore,

when it comes to end of June,

nothing much special to tell yet,

for me,

my holidays haven't officially started.

Somehow being a cancer,

sometimes I just wanna stick at my house instead of going out

although I'm so dead bored!

x.x

___________________________________________________

不收拾我也不知道，原来我有蛮多书的，只是之前都被收了起来~

之前毛跟YY讲我是文人，也许也不无道理! xDDDDD

收着收着风靡一时、好久不见的Hello Kitty也来跟我say hello了

原来我有那么多的哦 o.0 (全部都是当年麦记推出的merchandise)

中西式婚礼

现在就’带子大条’我不懂要放在哪里. ADuh~

当然啦，在纸箱里的还有很多以前的记忆.

天啊~收拾杂物=收拾回忆. Ariel之前都已经讲过了.

‘感性浪漫’ 的我XD竟然可以看到一些物品的时候

不花超过三秒的时间就把它往垃圾箱挥去，带有点毫不留恋那种

手挥了出去之后，我却反问我自己 ‘那么舍得?’

想了两秒，我就中断了思考，继续把手往垃圾箱挥去.

是我变了?既不念旧..又……..不感性?

我收起了凯欣给我的生日卡，毛给我的圣诞卡, 反正就所有别人送的卡

从初中到高中的学校日记，成绩册，还有所有朋友送的小礼物

我收了所有可以拼凑出‘我’和纪念着‘你们’的东西 =)

那被我往垃圾箱挥的那些算是什么?

__________________________________________________________________

I love holidays,

"I'm enjoying the break.. It's nice waking up with nothing to worry about" (Fatin, 2010).

haha.

back to pack and unpack my stufffffsss again.

庸人自扰

2010-06-10T00:55:00.003+08:00

不管在生活上课业上

我们常常都会庸人自扰

而忘记了

庸人自扰常常只会让我们输在起跑点上

所以

不如放开心胸

大胆尝试

或许结果就是那么意想不到

是好是坏

都是成就以及带出另一个你

哈哈

所以我也别那么庸人自扰

专心考试还有过生活吧

:)

Dreamer

2010-05-03T00:52:00.003+08:00

I'm a person who have tons of dream.
Some did come true and some will never.

There are lots that I need or want to achieve
somehow
some are clueless for me to kick off with.

However
I didn't give up of dreaming
and I believe
I'll never give up to dream as much as I can.

Because
I'm a dreamer who born-to-be.

Don't laugh.
Dreams might come true in someday.

Not only mine but ours.

=)

I'll never learn

2010-04-25T21:25:00.005+08:00

Here I am, for ranting again.

Week 8 now, which means this semester is gonna end very very soon, and that is why I'm attacked by stress recently.
Actually I am kinda sad, because I couldn't see my 'eye candy' after this semester. xDD

Let see how packed my submissions are.

6/5- International Studies, 1500 words
12/5- Communication, 2000 words
13/5-Marketing, 1000 words
14/5-Film Studies, 2500 words

God DAMN it!
I don't feel like I do have enough time to complete all these individual works on time.
There are So so so so SO packed!!

I'll never learn to focus.
I'll never learn to make use of time.
I'll never learn to 'zen' myself in the mal-condition.
I'll never learn to not repeating things that I swore not to repeat last time.

And, the worst part is when I'm attacking by stress,
my brain couldn't function properly.
And the hot weather makes me feel extremely uncomfortable and distracted.

How could I process in these ways? ='<

Perhaps I should visit library more in order to complete my assignments on time and, at the same time, enjoy the freezing air-cond there, since I couldn't focus at home. ;)

=(

2010-04-18T15:09:00.003+08:00

当我受够了西方的吵杂
我回回令我舒服的东方
那种含蓄的表达
好让我可以静静地写完这篇东西

可是
当我受够了你
我却不知我该往哪边走去
因为你的恶心是无处不在
你的邪恶是遍布四方
无论我转到哪
你的丑陋还是令人觉得有点可悲的可怕

就算回到我专属的港口
他的单纯也是溶化我片刻的不安定
而不是打从心里的疙瘩

实在有够
恶心

Nighmare

2010-04-15T08:16:00.003+08:00

Hopefully bad thing will not come.
It's so rare~
I got 2 nightmares in a same night yet I'm not a often 'dreamer'.
And every time I cried till waken up from the nightmare.
Is it a foreboding?

Please don't.
I'm gonna get back one of my essays today.
=(

Anyway today would be a hard day for me, I guess,
coz people said you are not really rested if you dream.
And I dream twice.
='(

Management

2010-04-13T14:32:00.008+08:00

Management, specifically time management, is always a hard task for me.
Why? HAHA~
Maybe you couldn't believe it but it's true, I'm a solitary sort of fellow, I mean sometimes.
'Sometimes' included when I wanna work on my works, write my blog, place myself in ZEN mode, think/imagine about my future, listen to those relaxing songs, sing along songs and so forth....
I really enjoy the time when I have been isolated in my own little space; and this is the only time that I can utilize my time or work things out better.

Unfortunately, I didn't own my own room/space=(
I've been having a 'room-mate' since I was young.

And the another sad story was, I used to live in a single-storey townhouse, therefore I can hear what exactly on the TV when I was in my room and wanted to do my works.
Those temptations were too much for me.
And then, after hours of fighting with the angel and evil on my head, finally, the TV was switched off and my peaceful little world came at the same time.
However, it only lasted for 5 minutes. Because my room-mate will come into 'our' room and lie on the bed.

Have I forgotten to tell that, my 'room-mate' is the coach potato who always sit in front of the TV and claim that she is too old to listen to the volume that I set and keep turning the volume up? ==

Glad that my house is under renovation now, I'm going to own my own room and little space.
And hopefully there is no more reasons for me to not manage my time well after this.
Except that, after owning a room, there is no more reasons to blame others make my belongings lost. And there is no more reasons for me not to keep my room tidy and neat all the time.
Most importantly, there is no more reasons for me to start on my works after everyone slept.
HAHA.

p/s: Maybe I really got some problems, I really need things to go with the ways that I wanted them to be.

Arghhhhh

2010-04-06T22:53:00.004+08:00

Pwuuuuuuuuuuu~
This is what exactly I did just now, right after trying to search for books by the library website.

OH MY GOD!
Why the essay title look so easy(compare with others) but when you wanna kick a start on it, it is so CLUELESS.

ADUHHHHHH!!
Sem 2 already, I dont know why I still cant get used to arrange those massive and messy information while trying to do the essay.

__________________________________________________

You know what, recently I keep thinking about those questions which I used to give a very strong and confident answer to my parents before I start my course. I remember my answer was like

"I dont want to take Business course, it's very boring and Arts is more suitable for me. I wanted to do Arts, I'm not a business kind..."etc, like what you can imagine now.

Initially, I wanna do language major but since my uni din offer any in this campus, so I just switch myself to my second choice- International Studies. But recently I just really wonder whether have I make a wrong decision? Although until now I dont really feel like I will be happier in business.

hoiyor~OK LAH.
Perhaps, I just so enough about those wars!
PLEASE LAH. Stop war history, it's killing me.
I live suffocatingly under history, esp war history.

Decision

2010-03-31T10:36:00.003+08:00

One of the hardest things in the world
would be making decision

Unfortunately
there are sooo many things have to be decided
From trivial decision in our daily life
to
the decisive decision which could totally change our life

We always have to decide something
mostly by ourselves
especially when we are old enough

See!
Growing up has nothing good

However I wonder
why decision is so hard for us to make?
Is it that all of us are timid?
Probably.
Timid on being blamed
Timid on facing the consequences
More importantly,
I guess
we are timid on admitting we are wrong

得闲饮野

2010-03-07T23:05:00.004+08:00

聊生活

我的也许比谁都无趣

新学期开始了

感觉比之前的学期自在了些

熟悉环境了嘛

朋友说她即将去考法文了

令我想起我的韩文瑜伽韩式烹饪到现在还在waiting list上有待完成

呵呵

所以今天不聊生活啦

哈哈

来聊聊酒

哈哈

喝一杯并不是最近才惹上的习惯

很久之前

我就喜欢小酌小酌

只是碍于年龄

才不敢放肆

哈哈

也不是说会喝得烂醉

只是小酌

让身体热一热

以酒来说

啤酒是比较不讨我喜欢的

它的气、残留的酒味令人很不舒服

然后到红酒

那个苦涩

还有有些是苦得来辣辣的

我也没很喜欢

可能是还没真正喝过

一流的红酒吧

反倒是

鸡尾酒、Shot

令我觉得蛮自在的

哈哈

鸡尾酒

用各种不同的味道

混合成一杯甜苦参半的饮料

承托上有时连念也念不出的名字

真的很特别

上次朋友喝了一杯里面有'菜'的咧

哈哈哈

其实是香草拉

至于shot

就只是烈酒掺汽水/果汁而已

可是一样赢得我的芳心

哈哈哈

因为它也是苦甜参半

而好的酒不会被汽水/果汁抢去风头

就算它在味蕾上不留下任何痕迹

当它入侵你的身体

你一定会感觉得到

ermmmm

看起来

aiyarrr

不知道为什么

我觉得我喜欢喝这两种酒是跟我性格有关的

只是到现在我还没找出那个‘奥妙’

哈哈哈哈

朋友

得闲饮野

xDDDD

我就是这么样的一个人

2010-02-22T00:10:00.007+08:00

我就是这么样的一个人
被摇摆的爵士音乐弄得我想着
自己跟朋友在纽约
在气氛佳的爵士音乐酒吧
听着诱人的爵士
喝着鸡尾酒
穿着裙子
拍着手掌鼓励台上的歌手
碰一碰酒杯
干了一杯
走在街上是永不灭灯的纽约街道
街上是一辆辆的黄色的士
还有
传闻中的沟渠'香'
配合着我漂浮的脚步
唱着刚才的爵士乐
走着回酒店
然后
躺在床上
笑着笑着
然后然后
发觉
梦还有一段路

我就是这么样的一个人
爱听故事
不爱流泪
爱吃东西
不愿花钱
喜欢听人唱歌
喜欢自己唱歌
浪漫的歌

我就是这么样的一个人
喜欢跟人说着自己的故事
说着怎么让电卷棒烫伤了下巴
怎样长了痘痘
怎样喝醉
新试的面膜好不好用
谁谁谁唱歌很好听
谁谁谁讲话很好笑
谁谁谁人很好
云顶行用了很多钱却没有很尽兴

反正做自己真的很舒服
也原来
我身边也有听我故事的人
很喜欢你们
也爱你们当你们在我说之前
就知道我是这么样的一个人
=)

老歌

2010-02-15T00:24:00.004+08:00

老歌比较好听
这个情况
让我深深体会
新的东西不一定好

新的东西包装好
令人有焕然一新的感觉
然而
播出来的
只是重量不重质的敷衍

就这样
又重头投入旧歌的怀抱

啦啦啦啦啦~

在新的一年开始之际
旧的还是比较受欢迎

万象复旧
心里有种说不出的澎湃

无聊的新年
>___<

想要跟我的SPT疯狂去

酒后遗症

2010-02-13T22:13:00.003+08:00

很享受
那片刻的无我
然而
我却不喜欢它带来的后遗症

一整天的不舒服
24小时的无精打采

当它在我身上猛烈的流动时
我无法思考
无法完全睁开双眼看看酒后的世界
然而
耳边定会传来朋友们看见的世界

后遗症
也使我无法分辨对与错
那就让我含糊带过那个我错过的世界吧
呵呵

不知道是原本就是这样
还是被酒精挡住了思维线
因为到此刻
我还是无法好好思考
好啦

Frankly, the way that I celebrated the coming of Chinese New Year Eve
is CRAZY~

朋友们
希望你们幸福
或者自私点地说
希望你们以我所希望看见的方式幸福
咔咔咔咔咔
=)
Love U alllll~~^^

就那几秒

2010-01-26T01:04:00.003+08:00

城市的轮廓线
不管是以蓝天白云的天空
还是黑漆漆的夜空
为背景
总好像在向全世界展现她的威严

白天
既是如此高傲
督促着必须辛勤工作的人们
夜晚
却是如此亲和
像摇篮拥抱着我们这些像蚂蚁般小的子民

每次看到这些图片
就自然而然觉得自己很渺小
哈哈

就那几秒

真的会感慨说
既然我们是那么无助
可能会被自己盖的高楼压死
可能会被我们发明的汽车撞死

我们还真的不需要那么执著
凡事量力而为就好
不然到头来
也是
一场空

就那几秒
=)

____________________________________

出国的朋友回来了
回国的朋友出国了
人来人往
繁忙的机场
也是个好地方
=v=
ding DOng~

The man who can't be moved

2010-01-23T01:02:00.002+08:00

记得朋友告诉我
华语歌没有'oom'的
英文歌比较有'oom'
哈哈

我只知道
if there is a man who is not going to move
when he is waiting for a mere possibility of a nearly impossibility,
there is where romance is.
Haha.
A romance which is not so real in life.

Pampering myself in those English love songs recently
=)

________________________________________________

感觉好像经历了一段岁月
撕了数本的日历
但其实算起来
也没有想象中的'历史悠久'

从不经意的开始
到现在的安稳
为什么
我总觉得那么理所当然?
呵呵

Maybe it's because
-The man who won't be moved-

xDDDDD

不够真诚

2010-01-11T20:55:00.003+08:00

每每到新环境
认识新朋友
总抱着期待的心情
然而
总会不时被事实摇醒的那一刻
感到失望

是一种我还不擅形容的感觉
超出场面话的极限

不知怎么地

当我觉得对方不够真诚

深交的念头就会打消

这样总觉得可惜

想

2010-01-05T23:42:00.004+08:00

想事情
是一个脑部的活动

然而
这是一个对身心有益的活动
还是
是自残的一种?

想了很久

Summary

2009-12-28T23:33:00.006+08:00

Sometimes I wonder, is it that we have to try our best to figure the outcome once we had made a decision, whether it seems good or not?
Or else it just another dilemma that we could not get an satisfied answer?

Back to my life. Yup, ordinary like usual.
Paid a trip to Singapore, a so-called adventure trip because we went there without prior research, Singapore is not a hard place to travel though. Happy but tired, actually I have no ideas why the trip is so tiring.
And I met the kind of taxi driver mentioned in "Taxi Tales".
For the author, taxi drivers are not simple or ordinary, they all are driving philosopher who will have their own point of views and they will always share with their passengers.
The one that I met is a philosopher who major in international relationship, particularly in the relation of Malaysia and Singapore. lol
I'm not going to deny his points which are really true, however it just kinda...swt. Just like the author, she always has her OS in heart when she's listening to the driving philosopher and so do I.

"Uncle, I know you are really nice and sharing these info with us but could you please introduce us more places to visit instead?" lol

The construction in Singapore are architectural and well-designed. Even when you stand on the middle of the road at the middle of the night, I feel that I'm secured.
It's a nice place to visit and before I entered to the cabin, my OS turned to

" I'll be back, S'pore" ;)

It's ending..

2009-12-07T21:48:00.002+08:00

Is it that when things are coming to the end, people will eventually get depressed easily?
Even in the season like Christmas which supposed to be joyful and cheerful?

I suddenly realized.
I'm not happy..for a long time, a really long time.
I've already forgotten, when was my laughing that makes me feel crazy.
It's pitiful.
And when I saw my friends' photos, those are what life should be when life is short.

糟糕

2009-12-07T21:36:00.003+08:00

生活没有想象中的如意
甚至可以用糟糕来形容

一分，真的是一分而已
我就跟ptptn说了再见
对不起爸妈
我没有能力减轻你们的负担
对不起

至于工作
销售量不好
天时与地利不合
可是
上级要的不是理由不是吗

至于你
常常要你忍受我漂浮不安的情绪
这样的一个女友不也是糟糕吗

搬到暂住的家
上不了网
这个是再糟糕不过的事了

圣诞来了
买了份礼物给自己
这么会花钱
实在是奢侈得不得了

可是原来花钱也是买不到开心的=)

Friends and the City

2009-11-11T14:48:00.010+08:00

Kuala Lumpur is such an amazing city where there are really lots kind of people around.

It's much full filled with both locals and exotics.

What would you say?

We have the very 'local' who we called bumiputra;

we have those coming from the Chinese land;

we have those coming from the Indian land;

and of course we have those from elsewhere.

So, the very special thing here is- we all mixed together!

How nice! =)

Recently

one of my best friends seems having a very good time on her job and her life.

I really glad to hear that.

But then, what I really get aroused is her life! LOL

Oh my godness...!!

I have to prepare myself!

Prepared to get some astounded news from her!

Oh my godness!! A French not french fries! LOL

Oh my godness again!

I'd never been thought that any of my friend will hook up with an ang mo~

Although France doesn't give me any good impression,

except the nice and romantic view in Paris .

What I heard about French are arrogant, unfriendly or possibly sometimes they are rude.

But these are not always the cases, right?

The thing is my friend met a French in M'sia!!

Although their prospect is looking dim now, who knows what will happen next, right?

Maybe she'll meet another ang mo..?

Haha.

I think I should stop my own exciting imagination here before she get frustrated. lol

Apart from this,

erm..well, I guess I'd better elaborated my 'friends and the city' series on my next blog post..

It's too long already.

Quote Carrie Bradshaw in Sex and the City,

"This is what I love about NYC, you'll never know what'll happen next."

For me,

"This is what I love about City, you'll never know what'll happen next."

Need not to go to the far away NYC, in the small and messy KL or elsewhere, you'll definitely find your own enchanted.

I love City; the unknown variables in it which waiting for you to reveal. =D

Ces't la vie!

Santé !

悼念建筑

2009-11-02T13:33:00.012+08:00

因为功课需要
在youtube找了911恐怖袭击的短片来看
反复看了多次
没有一次我的心是不震撼的

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x4sRi5stG10&feature=fvw
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M6f9Jpfz1Vo&feature=related

听见人们
从歇斯底里地呐喊
到无助地痛哭悲鸣
叫人怎么不怜悯

短短的数十秒
送走的不是风
是人命
而留下只有灰烬

曼哈顿的夜空从此就这样历史性地改变了
昂昂耸立地大厦

只剩下两束光

再查看资料
原来袭击者不是像我们想象中
来自贫窘的邋遢穷人

个个都是受教育
中产阶级的第二代
甚至多数是在美国土生土长
受美国开放式的教育
照理来说
应该是个懂得是非对错
爱好和平的文明现代人
而且其中很多人都有飞机驾驶执照
原本是大有好为的年轻人
为何会甘愿牺牲自己去完成那所谓的还击?
不明白
______________________________________

Pudu Jail
要拆咯
送走的也不是风
是回忆

虽然我知道的不是很多
也没有进过去
只是那外围的墙
可是受刑的囚犯画的
我觉得很有意义
而且中学那段时间
常常都会经过它
就像是我过去的一部分一样

现实就是会把这一切都摧毁
它坐落在市中心
与金三角是邻居
时间的变迁强烈地投影在它身上
对我来说
这种对比的美感
才是最自然的最有意义地标
有些东西有时候真的
不需要刻意规划营造

又少了一栋有历史的建筑
让我有些为大马惋惜

原来
那些绝望的嘶哄与我这种内心静静地惋惜
就是人们对于建筑物的感情
世界上
真难找到一样没有情感的东西
=)

依归·归依

2009-11-01T23:10:00.003+08:00

这个就是我喜欢感情的地方
不管你在天涯的哪方
时差如何阻拦
那股力量会支撑着你
让你知道迷路了也会有个方向

这是一种力量
不局限于拥有爱情才可以拥有的力量

这股力量
我称之为
依归

Time @ Final Countdown

2009-10-28T23:08:00.004+08:00

Time flies.
Time and tide wait for no man.
And finally, it's time to have final exam.
I don't know what can I do in this very last minutes.
Currently, I'm in final countdown-ing.
My 1st paper, the very adorable Psychology, will be held in this coming Friday, after lunch,1.30pm.
Will it be a lovely Friday's afternoon? HOPE SO.

I wonder why before and after exam, students are always surrounded by the feelings of guilty, regret and the always unsolved questions.
'I should have started earlier' ' I should have on schedule'
'why i'm this lazy' 'why why WHY'...blah blah blah..
Why don't we bear these questions and feelings on mind and avoid ourself trapping into the muddy time's trap again?
Why we always choose to stay in the revolving door- keep repeating 'the final tragedy'?
Of course, I'm always is one of those typical students, seems like I kena cursed.
It's a good time to ask myself, 'why'.

After all these craps, back to reality...
1 and 1/2 days more..
Wish me LUCK!
Wish you all LUCK too.

Brave to live in Reality

2009-10-26T01:21:00.005+08:00

I like my friends who always means both teacher and friend to me.Unfortunately, not everyone could own that position in my heart.Yet, once you owned that position, it's quite hard for me to sack you away. xD

In my last post, he said living in the past will make us vulnerable.True. I know that.
Meanwhile, I realize that I'm not brave enough to stay brave and strong.Hence, I'm not good enough to achieve what a stronger could achieve.Ironically, being a stronger is what I wanna to be.
I do set goals, and I really put some efforts to achieve them.Although the results are not satisfying, due to the reason that the insufficient efforts,but at least I do try, unlike in the past, keep nagging and do nothing.I promise myself to do better in the coming future.

I hope I can live in reality, as strong as you all.But the loneliness that I felt sometimes, killing me softly and demolishing what I have done.It's regrettable, but I have to admit that I'm as brave/ tough as I thought.

Fortunately, I still have you guys.
Right? =)

Don't worry, I'll really try to be brave to live in reality.Reality is harsh, vulnerable me will try, really really do try.

1st step is, coping with loneliness!

Wish me Luck! xD
And thanks~everyone~in my life~

统考 · 学期考

2009-10-20T14:16:00.005+08:00

这是去年的这个时候
我在书轩
让眼镜与商业课本合照的画面

今天来到这里
人一样不多
服务一样周到
冷气还是一样冷
饮料还是一样浓稀参半

只是我的眼镜
不能只是跟一本课本合照
它必须与更多的东西去描绘去
现在的我
还有我们

更厚的课本
但却少了战友的陪伴

一起熬夜
一起准备明天的测验
已经变成
独自熬夜
独自准备明天的测验

手机也不会在深夜
收到战友的一封 '进展如何?' 信息
更没有互相叫对方起身的来电

今天的书轩
也有不少人在准备统考
就像我们去年这段时间一样

该死的
让我想起
我去年的生活
就很自然的
好怀念

好想待在书轩到傍晚
然后到isetan去抢购半价便当
明天带去学校吃

可是
该死的laptop
我害怕走在不完全安全也不完全危险的金三角时
要跟它说再见

成长的代价
就是
我不能再抢购半价便当??
哈
_____________________________________

回忆
为何总是那么美好

纵使
那段时间
是那么难挨过

如果让回忆继续在脑里翩翩起舞
我也好想在毕业晚会
好好地
再一次
牵着朋友们的手
胡乱地再跳一次
然后
又再一次
看着友人点放的烟火
多么美丽
多么灿烂

=)

哇哇叫

2009-10-13T15:49:00.004+08:00

哈哈
我的生活
总是跟是非挂钩
其实也不是什么新东西
只是最近回顾了这段时间的生活
然后
拖到现在才来写而已

'哇'
惊讶地一叫或两叫
总是在某个八卦后出现
哈哈

八卦、是非
这是我们的天性吗?
如果是
我觉得也跟我们的外表一样
有显性基因和隐性基因之分

有些人静静的
可是
储藏室里有很多不为人知的‘好料’
有些人很聒噪
叽叽喳喳
可是说来说去也还不是那两样
在这种情况中
我会假设
他/她只是在套我的资料
哈哈

可是哦
其实我并没有很八卦
只是八卦会找上门
然后
可能是我的组织能力还不错
就能把A说的
跟B说的连一连
然后大家就觉得我是雷达
什么事都来问我
@@

‘哇’
要我这么惊讶地一叫其实还有点难
除非你的八卦真的很有爆点
例如
谁昨天秘密生了
偷偷结婚了
超出我们这个年纪所能覆盖的范围的八卦
才算是
哇哇叫的八卦

不然哦
净说些没有爆点的所谓新闻
没有价值的新闻
也会让说的那个人慢慢慢慢没有价值

有一句话说得很对
人最难看见的是自己
就在我描述他人的八卦时
我已写了这篇有点‘长舌’的blog

我真的要认真学着点
养好嘴巴

阿门
=)

一生人

2009-09-30T22:42:00.003+08:00

一生人
我们会经历多少的
开心
我们会错过多少的
精彩

其实所有事情的根源
都是'决定'
这一秒的决定
决定你的一生人的一生
就算是一个微不足道的小决定
它也可能在不知不觉中影响了
哈哈
有选择恐惧症的人
会不会就是因为太理解这个道理?

一生人
要有多少的开心
才算是开心
要有多少的精彩
才算是精彩

如果我这一生人
选择只跟一个人
那我的开心
都是建立在这个人
我的精彩
都取决于这个人

怎么听起来有很传统的感觉?
好像
女怕嫁错郎酱

这几天
脑
没有休息过
思考着
作文怎么写
思考着
我的一生人
很努力地思考着该怎么走
可是
连下一秒会发生什么事
我都不知道
酱怎么想?

跟着感觉走?
走走走
走到哪里
很怕走到迷路
然后到最后
我连你都没有了
没有了
也找不回来了
那我该怎么走

不知道为什么
我这几天
很容易被不安的频率
侵袭我的思绪
攻击我的心
可能是我的‘信心’军
累了
防御不了攻击

我只想
忘掉所有的东西一天
让我的脑空白一天
就一天
不想所有的事情
不去思考那些所谓‘一生人’的问题

好累好累
明白吗

啊~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
啊~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

凭什么

2009-09-19T22:27:00.004+08:00

我的人生是我的

你
凭什么剥夺
凭什么替我做决定
凭什么要我听你的话
凭什么要我跟着你的理想生活
凭什么说为我好

你
到底知不知道我多么需要自由
到底知不知道我要为自己做任何一个小决定
到底知不知道为什么我会听你话
到底知不知道我有我理想的生活
到底知不知道我所谓的‘好’是什么

我能了解你为我好
可是
我怎样也理解不到
你为什么可以替我做决定

我不是一个机器
除了功课我还有、还要做很多事
你不在这里
新朋友不熟
我真的很闷
闷得
你随时找我，我都得空那种
为什么连这种难得的聚会
也要为我做个你觉得为我好的决定

我有感觉
伤了我还要言有其物那么觉得
为我好

我怎么也想不到
你也会忽略我的感受
你也会这么不公平地对待我

所以
这次
我也决定不理你的感受

我真的很伤心

“我只是要告诉你罢了，没有打算叫你去”
.....
就这样被遗弃

过后的那些慰问
怎样也弥补不了这句话带来的冲击
只会让我觉得
你要我跟着你的想法去做

Fuck off!

Mand-glish

2009-09-14T22:39:00.004+08:00

Today one of my friends critiqued on chinese blog.

He said
Chinese blogs are always emo
and they like to describe about 'weather'

well

he got his point, right?

And apparently
I'm shooting by him as well

I'm not angry at all
Even he said he cant get what my blog is all about
Sometimes I dont really know what I'm writing
haha xD

But~
Obviously
He had made me wanna make up my point
Just like what he did

Then
My mind came out a new term
Mand-glish
the combination of Mandarin & English

Mandarin or Chinese
is the most powerful written language in the world...
..for me..

I love the beauty of Chinese
because
this is the only language that could express all my world
in only 1 word.
no more no less, ONE

I proud that I could command Chinese
the hardest language in the world.

Yet
I always ask myself
'Why I cant master English when I had alrdy master the hardest quite well?'
.......

Well, back to the topic~
My point is..
Chinese is powerful and it suits the 'sentimental' me.
And
one day
I'll prove that English blog can describe about weather and Emo as well
hehehe~

Mand-glish
is another wonderful and powerful language that created by ME.

Me思you
乐full又

If your language foundation is good enough
You will get what these two short phrases mean

第一篇英文的blog
我不会常用
真的
^^

远走高飞

2009-09-13T17:49:00.002+08:00

又是一个令人分离的季节
可是很意外地
并没有很浓郁的悲伤

受到这种远走高飞的感染
我也很想远走高飞

看到朋友身后绿油油的一大片草地
异国风情的建筑
不同颜色的天空
另一个新生活的起步
真的让我很向往

很想就这样
抛开这里我不满意的一切
在另一个地方
同一片天空下
继续编奏属于我的故事
在我人生的旅途上点缀上那么一点异国风情

呵呵

很奇怪哦
我突然有点开始喜欢我现在的生活
说不上为什么

虽然
课业很繁重
不时还会被压力逼得眼泪狂流
忙碌过后
还得日夜担心自己能不能过关
可是
就
哈哈

会不会是我已经投入了这样的忙碌
还是
现在的‘浪漫’天气
使我不自觉摇晃了起来..?

远走高飞
离别，有时候真的不需要伤心
=)

回忆里的味道

2009-09-05T21:08:00.004+08:00

117天过后
2009又要说再见了

那么说来
离开循人
已经快一年了

在那边的种种种种
还会不时跳进我的眼眶里

人没有了回忆会怎样?

对我来说
人是由回忆支撑起来的
因为它有力量
让你开心、失落的力量
当然还有
陪伴的力量

回忆除了片段
还参杂着气味

气味
总是在你想起某件事某个人某个地方之前出现

前几天
我突然想起某种气味
erm..味道
日本的味道
日本秋天的味道
还有
皇宫
皇宫前的街道
街上的树
树上的阳光
阳光的温暖
...
那个时候
真的很想马上买机票去东京
找回那个街道
可是
我不知道怎么去回哪里了
就算让我去回了
那个感觉
那个味道
还是会回来没吗?

回忆所带来的感觉
真的很美妙
而
最令人痛苦的地方是
它永远不会回来
不会重复
因为它是回忆
在脑里回过去的记忆

所以说
说什么
什么都不用再说
静静地想一想、闻一闻
你记忆里的那个味道
你就会知道我在说什么
=)

又是这样的季节

2009-08-31T13:47:00.002+08:00

花开

叶落

一直轮回的季节

也夹带着一直轮回的情绪

难免

难免会让人惊忆起过去

熬过的残夜

寒冻的冬天

我不是童话的信徒

但我相信

现实的结局也可以是美好

是我

太强求所谓的美好、开心的结局

还是

所谓的'童话'

在我们有生之年只会一次又一次地被

现实

扯的

支离破碎

剩下的

剩下的

只是

用眼泪陪衬

让人支破碎的残余记忆...?

以及无数的问号..?

温暖的人

2009-08-09T00:18:00.003+08:00

不知道你们会不会觉得

有种人

是很温暖的

温暖的人

他们不一定很热情

那种热情的

反而不一定温暖

有时

还会弄到你觉得

他出现之后

有阵阵的寒风刺骨

说回去

温暖的人

就

想到他/她的时候

你会觉得这个人真的很温暖

当然

到目前为止

温暖的人我会定义成朋友那种

不是男女那种

可能是因为听闻他的什么事迹而这么觉得

也可能因为

他/她就是你的朋友

就在你的身边"救灾"

温暖的人

真的很重要

虽然

我相信对每个人而言他们都不乏存在

他们会让你燃气希望

觉得这个世界还是会有情的

而

就算已经多么糟糕

自己

也还是幸运的

因为还可以遇到温暖的人

处在不胜寒的别处时

还可以

=)

启程

2009-08-02T18:24:00.002+08:00

毛开了新blog

起航

很有意思的感觉

所以

我也要跟着启程

嘻嘻

_______________________________

突然相通了

我之前说什么

现在的生活根本不是我

哈哈

其实是自己启程了

却

ermmm

却

不愿启程

所以

埋怨

我相信

当我觉得自己已经‘渗透’在学校时

会好很多

做工的你们

升学的大家

熬过过渡期

就会有晴朗的好天气

^_______^

朋友说

到新环境

会很有念书的‘心机’

的确

我觉得做工也是

刚开始的时候

大家的心中都有一把火

所以

如果能把火适当地蕴存

日子应该也会好过些

呵呵

"想达到明天，现在就要启程"

是时候放下了

该放下的东西

启程吧~!

小结· 小小结

2009-07-28T22:01:00.002+08:00

我还在埋怨

常常那种

看不明的同时

却又看得明

当它们分开的时候

我知道它们是谁

可是

当它们走在一起的时候

我真的

不知道

它们想告诉我什么

唉

如果你们知道我现在的生活

一定会吓倒

因为

我

不是那样的

huuuuuu~

也许这些就是新开始

有好

有坏

还好有认识到朋友

不然

这样的生活

真的

dry到

要'爆拆'了

——————————————————————————————

原来

需要时间去证明

自己的身躯有多么坚硬

是否

风吹雨打

都可只臂去顶

也原来

要在这种时候

才会让我深刻明白

为什么那么多人那么脆弱

自己其实

也只不过是那样而已

爱情

是种毒

浅尝强身

等到它差不多入味的时候

可能连自己都会被模糊掉

唉

苦恼
_________________________________________

远方的大家

过得还好吗

^^

"新"情紧张

2009-07-12T22:30:00.002+08:00

小学过后

这是第一次

第一次去到陌生的地方

没有家长的陪伴

没有被温暖的大手牵着

我长大了

必须只身

前往

看起来华丽的讲堂

迎接

个个充满自信的新脸孔

接触

从未念过的科目

会不会

有一天我会觉得高数还比较简单

面对

西装笔挺的讲师

踏入

有点像餐厅的食堂

置身

英文教育的环境

说不紧张

不可能

说不期待

不尽然

这种心情

我

唉

希望是一个全新的好开始

聊天

2009-07-09T19:55:00.002+08:00

这两天

都在跟不同的朋友聊天

聊很多

从前

现在

以后

什么都聊

跟老朋友聊天真的很爽

以前

真的

...

好好笑

除了这个之外

我想不到其他形容词

哈哈

聊着聊着

肯定先是大笑

然后再讲更劲爆的点

然后就笑到爆

爆?

对~

爆~

初中的时候

很流行暴力

有人会要

"打爆你的头"

有人会恐吓你

"kam你两把"

还有一条水

作势要拿灭火筒打人

然后就站在那背着黄色的书包求饶

好好笑

还有一个人

被班长叫不要吵还是不要讲话

然后不知道怎样就哭了

哈哈哈

白痴

笑着笑着

很自然

接下去的就是

缅怀

然后就不舍得

不舍得

真的很不舍得

很不舍得就这样

一点一点地老下去

唉

初三的时候

有人在班上模仿MJ

如今

天王都归天了

时间

耐人寻味

2009-07-07T15:40:00.002+08:00

所有东西

都是两面的

路边摊

自己没有想吃的时候

觉得还蛮肮脏的

前面那辆车

后面那辆车

的废气

都粘在食物上

可是想吃的时候

我从来没有想过这个问题

而且

我觉得这些

路边摊

大牌档

才能煮出精髓

哈哈

以前

看见别人痛苦

我会叫她/他放手

然而

现在

我会迟疑

万一

假设

可能

你们再坚持一下下

就能成功

那

我岂不就成了

凶手

可是

如果

假如

坚持下去没有任何的结果

更伤心难过时

那

....

钱

到底

要省小钱用大钱

还是

省大钱用小钱

看到贵的东西不舍得买

可是又觉得

贪小便宜

有时候

很不实际

....blur...

前几天

发觉
我画画真的很够差

我想画飞机

可是看来看去

却觉得像壁虎

喜喜

2009-07-03T15:19:00.004+08:00

我有喜事

哈哈

很意外的一天

成绩出了

很意外地过关了

可是我的offer letter过期了

原因是我把June看成July

给自己的大头

弄到我很头大

可是一通电话过后

又很意外地解决了

他们叫我明天去交钱就可以了

原本以为今天会是很不好的一天

因为去拿成绩的时候

我差点撞车

那辆金色的benz很突然地冲出来

害我铲上bok

我horn他

他没一回事地直冲红灯

我怀疑他

聋的

＋

有点盲

刚才也看到很久很久款的city

我们的kancil跟它长得还真像

有点凄凉的感觉

/.\

我终于放下心头大石

可以开开心心

继续在这边 '种花' 拉

对了

在此

我要谢谢曾经为我祈祷的人

也要谢谢教我作文的教授

还要谢谢在西方极乐世界的神

还有在远方的佛

我爱你们

希望你们也会永远爱我

^ u ^

Facebook

2009-06-30T20:02:00.011+08:00

刚才我就在想

20年以后

还会不会有人post照片上去

还有没有人会去别人的照片/帖子留言

哈哈

那时候

还有人会去拼命破typin maniac的纪录吗

还有人会去管她的pet吗

那间餐馆怎么样了

哈哈

很多疑问在我的脑力

想到都觉得

很

激动!

哈哈

真的很想知道

我们的以后会是怎样的

KAMPAR游记

2009-06-29T20:09:00.011+08:00

去了kampar

见识了他们的生活

真的很朴素

还好我去的那两天天气还算不错

所以还可以去湖旁

吹吹风

拍拍照

踏踏脚车

晚上睡觉的时候还不至于

汗流浃背

不过说真的

要我长期住在那边

我觉得我不到一个星期就吵着要回了

除了没有消遣

据说

那边平时是很热的

还有

我去到那边一定会比他们更颓废

每天就一直

上网

看戏

Kampar Gang们

加油

努力

别白费了你们牺牲的

希望下次去到的时候

有机会尝尝Roti KLCC

=)

2009-06-22T20:33:00.001+08:00

刚才去了无所谓
那个在3年前
我们班上最有创意的5株小草创立的

哈哈

那边
很像春天
文字花园的花开得好美

看到浩然的一篇
很感动的一篇
无所谓就像是他的孩子

看到傅先生的文章
觉得很轻松
很想笑><

那个我心里的哲学家
晨辉先生
还是...
很有道理
有点复杂又很有道理

当然我没有每篇去看
梓贤也是有写东西
文翰就贡献漫画

能认识他们真好 ^^

mpgarden.blogspot.com

In 2011

给自己的备忘录

心战

戏剧人生

自由的不想睡

写•我

不顺

澳洲说

要 公主

荒废

一首歌

Charmaine in the Americano-land

I have a dream

梦想起飞

Dreamy land

The M.A.C world

Grand Returning

Gone Invisible

温习周杰伦

Fly Me to the Moon :)

July in a nutshell

Chanel Movies

When it comes to last day of June

庸人自扰

Dreamer

I'll never learn

=(

Nighmare

Management

Arghhhhh

Decision

得闲饮野

我就是这么样的一个人

老歌

酒后遗症

就那几秒

The man who can't be moved

不够真诚

想

Summary

It's ending..

糟糕

Friends and the City

悼念建筑

依归·归依

Time @ Final Countdown

Brave to live in Reality

统考 · 学期考

哇哇叫

一生人

凭什么

Mand-glish

远走高飞

回忆里的味道

又是这样的季节

温暖的人

启程

小结· 小小结

"新"情紧张

聊天

耐人寻味

喜喜

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